WHAT IS PERFECTION ANYWAY?

to start this things off, no one is perfect. yep, there i said it. people tend to forget that when anger gets the best of them. this doesnt only pertain to other people, im talking about myself here too. like many people i also miss the summer, the carefree days, the laughter, the long nights just sitting, looking at the stars. everyone sees this side of summer... no problems, no worries, nothing in there way. no one brings up the bad, sad, horrible parts of summer we also went through. just like summer, we tend to forget the upsetting things that happen over time, we put them to the side, and keep them there so they never have to come back to haunt us. just a recap... people fought, ran away from their problems, caused unnecessary drama, and people did things that shouldnt have been done. the point im trying to make is that all this stuff doesnt matter anymore, no one brings it up, no one holds it against you, no one cares. why cant that be used now? why cant people forget about the bad things people may say during the school year like they did in the summer? this is my senior year, and not only have i made the best of it so far, im continuing to make the best of it, no matter what speed bumps get in my way. so for the people i have hurt, im sorry. for the people i havent paid enough attention to, im sorry. for the horrible things i have done to people, im sorry. i honestly dont want my senior year to be ruined from the things people have done or said, including myself here, and instead of making this time in our life stressful, aggravating, or meaningless, can we please make the rest of this time the best time of our lives? we have 4 months until we graduate. i want no split friendships, no heartache, no worries... at all. i want people to be able to forgive, i want myself to forgive, i want apologies to be real, and not just said for connivence, and i want real relationships with people. i want more all-nighters, i want to sit and stare at the stars more often, i want more meaningful, and long conversations about our teenage lives, i want more adventures, i want real friendship... i want real friendship again. we, as a society need to stop making the same mistakes over and over again. i personally have grown so much in the past few days its unreal, literally unreal. i know youre probably thinking... "thats dumb, no one grows remarkably in a few days" but i have. i realized what true friendship is, i noticed not everything you do has to be for a reason, no one has complete control over me except God, i am the maker of my own decisions, and i am the only reason i get let down, not by the actions of other people. i still have a lot to learn, and im working on that everyday. they say you learn something new everyday, and i agree with that 100%. over these past few days i have learned what it means to have, and be a good, true friend. no one is a "perfect" friend, everyone has flaws, everyone messes up, everyone does things they shouldnt do, or says things they shouldnt say, but my part in the process of being a good friend is learning how to get past all of that, forgetting the mistakes, making right the bad things i have done, making sure that this year is unforgettable. making sure this year is remarkable.